I came on here to write a little Karissa update and Jenna had beat me to the "grad school" punch! Probably because her and I g-chatted about it today.
Its fun g-chatting, it keeps me sane at a job that otherwise makes me want to cause myself physical pain. Its like a little dose of schiedermayer sarcasm whenever I need a pick me up! SIDE NOTE: Funny story with one of my roommates. Jenna, she will absolutely hate you. The first day she moved in (she's sweet as a peach on a hot summer day, and katie craigs childhood friend) she told us that she doesn't think sarcasm is funny because she didn't grow up around that or teasing....uhhh.... I am probably the least funny person she knows! Ha, its been funny trying to learn how to communicate with someone who grew up so differently than me (hello! Ralph Hurst is my father...)
Anyways, I almost quit my job today (good thing I had the self control to not lose it). I have been struggling with it for a while. I enjoy what I am doing, but I am at a standstill and don't feel like I am moving forward at all. That is my least favorite feeling, feeling like I am not doing something that is furthering me in my career/walk with God etc. I am not treated well at all, yelled at for no reason, made to feel stupid, treated as a scapegoat for mistakes and mismanagement by my boss (by her boss). Today was my breaking point when I got yelled at by the executive director for not doing a project, which would be fair....except that my boss forgot to give me said project and did not stand up for me when the ED started going ballistic. Needless to say, I have come to dislike heaidng to work each day... I like to think of myself as an intelligent person, but when I am there they make me out to be an incompetent neophyte. It's rough.
So I have been praying a lot about what the Lord has for me...business school? NO. Development economics like I always planned? I dont think so. The Lord has placed a burden on my heart for people in the world who have no voice...and, well, I have a pretty loud one, so I think I am supposed to use it. I say this with trepidation, but I really feel the Lord guiding my heart towards law school....yes, law school. I mean, it sounds intimidating to me and scary, but I truly feel like I have the skills and personality to do it. I want to go to a school that specialized in international law and then hopefully be a legal counsel for IJM or another organization/ government organization that deals with international crimes and disputes. I mean, lets be real, I love to argue, I love to read, I loved business law and thinking like a lawyer....
I really feel like the Lord is guiding me through this door and I would ask for your guys' prayers as I make some tough decisions in the coming weeks. I am going to ask my job if I can reduce my hours to 3 or 4 days a week so I will have time to study for the LSAT in december...lets just say that I need to do REALLY well on it to get into a good school. If they say no, I think I am going to quit and get a job at a coffee shop or restaurant so that I have time to study.
This is a scary road for me, so prayers are appreciated! Jen you are in my prayers daily as I certainly know what you are going through! Its super tough discerning the Lord's will, especially when it is something as HUGE as picking a graduate program...its a huge sacrifice to make in terms of your time and money.
Julie, Katie, Jen...please come visit, I miss you all so much (today I was really homesick...I think because normally we would all be heading back to school soon). Virgin America has $99 round trip ticktes on sale right now, so I might try and head home for a weekend soon, maybe in late september!
Beccs, I love you more than you know and I am praying for you every day that the Lord gives you strength and a sense of purpose while you are there.
I love you guys so much and miss you so so so so much. What I wouldnt give for a bottle of andre and the 4 of you in my living room right now!
XOXO,
Karissa
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